We survived the big move! I am now back to fully immersing myself not only in editing but also in promoting book one, ‘Isle of Skye’ again because I have a free book promotion coming up next week.
No pressure or anything.
I keep reminding myself that this is all worth it in the end. Every late night, every hair that has been pulled, and every yawn that has almost cracked my jaw. It’s all for a good cause. I was thinking about something today that made me laugh/cringe. When we arrived here, we had some family and close friends come over to say hi and help us unpack. My good friend and my sister in law were trying to convince to do the March of Dime walk in April. I was taken aback by the turn of conversation, after all I only just arrived at my new home.
I, of course, being the blunt person that I am tried to politely refuse but they kept asking so I said what first came to mind which was, “I’ll buy a shamrock at Wal-Mart, give me a break, I really don’t give a crap.”
Here’s the thing, I just moved 1100 miles. I have a book to promote, another book to edit and a third book to write. Three books that all require my attention in some way, shape or form. I also have three kids to acclimate to a new home and environment. I have so many thoughts and worries running around in my crazy brain that it is somewhat overwhelming. I find it difficult to relate to people lately. Sometimes I hear the conversations around me but it’s hard for me to focus when all I can think is about future dialog, chapters and scenes in my next book.
I want to be a good friend and human being. I want to support worthy causes but right now I can’t and it’s hard for me to explain to people what exactly I am going through. I have waited twenty years to do this. I literally eat, sleep and breathe my story. I know that everyone has goals. I fully realize that everyone has hopes and dreams but I also feel that this is MY time.
Granted, my time may end up with a one way ticket on the crazy bus, but I need support now more than ever. Taking on the editing process after what happened with book one has been a little daunting but I have sucked it up and I have got to say, book two is awesome. I’m sure there may be one or two errors ( or two hundred to the trained eye) but I feel like I fell off the editing horse, brushed myself up, and got back on to ride the wild mustang that is editing.
I’m not trying to dismiss anyone. I’m not trying to hurt anyone’s feelings. I’m just trying to write the stories that have been in my head for a long time now. I’m not going to lie, it has been the most difficult thing I have ever done…ok, maybe after having twin boys, but the thrilling sense of accomplishment is like nothing I have ever felt before. I’m not sure if it is pride or something else but all I know is “Isle of Skye’ was a journey into finding myself.
‘Isle of Night’ was where I started to believe.
I guess we’ll find out March 27th when it is released.